Saying Goodbye...

Woo hoo! Made it through the holidays! Now it's back to normalcy, or somewhat of it anyway. So much has happened since my last entry, I don't even know where to start. FYI- I sat down about 2 weeks ago and wrote a kick ass entry...don't know what happened, but blogger.com ate it! That thing disappeared. I was so upset, I cried myself to sleep that night. Not really, but I wanted to paint the picture.

I titled this entry "Saying Gooddbye" for a great reason. It's about that time again. Out with the old, in with the new, until you realize old wasn't so bad and possibly better than new. In which case, old is back again but feels like new because you missed it so much. Ok, I got off track. Point is, I'm in mourning.

Here is my list:
- Yvette is leaving me and moving to San Francisco with her boyfriend.
- I can no longer eat a Mexican chop chop from Chicken Kitchen with 2 sides of Mustard Curry and 2 sides of salsa.
- I am no longer going to get so wasted that I fall flat on my face in the middle of a club on South Beach.
- I am no longer crushing on co-workers.
- I am no longer friends with Lucy.
- I am breaking up with South Beach night life all together. It's been a love hate relationship from the start, but I'm ready to finally let him go.
- and for the grand finale, NO MORE CIGARETTES while I'm drinking because I will not be drinking but on super special occasions that are TBD when the time comes. Some of us have a problem with alcohol consumption.

Let's disect:
Yes, Yvette is leaving me for San Fran. Words can't even describe how much this sucks for me. I love her to death and while I know we will always be friends, it's going to take a lot of work to keep the lines of communication open. I just don't want our friendship to fall down by the wayside, and next thing you know, we're only talking on b-days.

I started my Nutri-System diet FINALLY. I've been on it for a week and going strong. I'm feeling pretty good actually. It pisses me off that we can't just eat whatever we want. Why does good food make us fat? NOT FAIR DAMN IT!

I decided that it's time to grow up and give up the club scene. There's gotta be something better to do. That's my new goal, find something better to do.

SO I have a super long story attached to NYE and the whole , no longer crushing on co-workers thing. I'll tell that story later, but the point is...work is work and it should stay there. Don't shit where you eat, and sometimes it's more fun to just flirt and fantasize than to actually see it through to fruition.

As far as Lucy, I know I haven't mentioned her before, but that friendship is over. We've had a pretty rocky friendship since highschool. With her, I always felt like I wasn't good enough, so no matter what I would do or how good I was to her, she still saw me as a selfish person. I tried and tried to prove her wrong, but at every turn, I seemed to be letting her down or at least just giving her ammunition to hold against me. In retrospect, no one should ever have to try that hard to validate their character to a friend. If someone is your friend, it's because they see your true colors and love you for them. For whatever reason, she couldn't see mine. I'll never really know what it was that was blurring her view of me. Some have said that it's jealousy, but the only one who knows that is Lucy.

So out with the old and in with the new! While, I am saddest about Yvette leaving me, I'm going to try my hardest to always keep in touch. She better do the same. The Mexican chop chop from Chicken Kitchen is pretty hard too...its been there for me on the saddest of days and darkest of nights. Now, what keeps me going is the thought of being 10lbs lighter, yay!